by kim tini
My son was born 2.5 years ago. When i stopped breast feeding him a year ago my period returned. With it in a matter of days i had extreme anxiety, phobias, agoraphobia, deep depression with suicidal thoughts, hot flushes, night sweats, internal shaking, pulpitations, shortness of breath and the list goes on! I had no idea what was wrong with me. I did not get another period for 4 months. During this time the symptoms did not let up. I was put on antidepressants that did nothing. I wanted to die. 6 months ago i found a psychiatrist that said i had post natal depression and changed the antidepressant. I improved very very slowly. The last 3 months i have noticed a pattern through keeping a mood journal and mu period starting to come back to a 28 - 32 day cycle. This is what i have discovered. Day 1 and 2 i feel ok. Day 3 i start to go downhill with crying each day. From about day 5 till 8 i slip into a deep depression with the dark thoughts of wanting to die. From about day 8 till about day 15 i am sad and have anxiety, fear of everything and crying. Then after i ovulate i start to feel better. Almost normal with only a couple of unsteady days but nothing i cant push through. The laat couple of days of my cycle i start to feel a bit short tempered with my kids and easily annoyed and then it starts all over again! I went to a gynocologist who said that it sounds like i am not making any oestrogen in the first half of cycle. I have some natpro that i purchased about a year ago but never used it as i was such a mess emotionally i just didnt know where to start. Is there any reason to use it now? I figure i cant use it in my first part of cycle as it may make me worse???? Do you have any advice or tips please? I am in need of desperate help. Its been a year of hell. I take a good multivitamin, vitamin D, i make a drink with flax seeds in it each day and fish oil but still only mildly improved.