I found me again!
I am now 62 happy years young but at age 55, in 2005 I lost my job, my relationship with my daughter and to top it off we were building our home (need I say more?) and I was the General contractor. I hit bottom and no matter what I tried (therapy, acupuncture, kenesiology, exercise, yoga, meditation, spiritual), what I took (meds), what I ate (I avoided sugar like it was poison!)or whether it was sunny or gray I never stayed happy too long and the "What is really the point to living?) attitude was always by my side. My anxiety was off the scale and depression was always nearby. I had lost the happy woman that had been inside of me for so long.
My womans' intuition ALWAYS told me that this was hormone related. I had a hysterectomy at age 43 but the ovaries were left. I had several tests done and having had breast cancer no Dr. wanted to prescribe any hormones to me. Life went on and I was able to live in this awful state until I just happened to talk to an old friend about sleeping; my sleep was awful and I just thought if I could sleep normally that it might help. She said that once she started oral progesterone she immediately went to sleep. I remembered that years ago I had tried the progesterone cream and I thought I had nothing to lose so I tried it again.
This might be the chicken or egg thing but life has completely changed for me; I am happy, have friends, love my life, my house (it was our going to be our dream home and I just kept thinking that it was our NIGHTMARE!), and I just can't seem to find enough time in the day to do all that I want to do. Those 5+ years of terror are gone.
I have been off all meds now and just use the cream. I have a few side effects-like weight gain (but again that might be due to my socialization and eating!) and a few flushes but I can live with that.
I just found this website and have decided to have my blood levels checked. I have only been using a 2% cream and want to make sure I am using enough.
Thank you for letting me share my story! Mary