Am I doing this right?
I'm 26 years old. I have a 5 year old daughter and a 3 year old son. I suffered horribly with Postpartum depression after the birth of my son. I had frequent crying spells and felt as though the world was crushing in on me despite having nothing to be depressed about. I struggled for a year to get my periods back to normal. Now they are regular but I have terrible PMS. Breast tenderness, ravenous appetite, blue moods and irritability just to name a few. I first tried natural progesterone cream back in November of 2012 when my PMS symptoms hung over into menstruation and a few days past. I was thrilled with how quickly I experienced relief! I felt wonderful, almost euphoric even (no complaints there). I was using a quarter of a teaspoon twice a day on my belly, thighs and breasts. I then ran out of that kind and tried a new cheaper alternative. Dropping to about 1/4 teaspoon once a day on my face. I felt really well for 3 months, I had more energy, very few pms symptoms and was glad to be alive. But whoa, right after I ovulated (or believe I ovulated) this month the same old symptoms washed over me like a title wave. It started out with hot flashes and night sweats, then the panic attacks! Two days after my period ended I had the worst depressive episodes I've ever had in my life! Crying unstoppably and even had some suicidal thoughts. What am I doing wrong here? I am now 6 days past my period and I still feel off. I switched back to the old cream and am now using the 1/4 teaspoon twice daily again but I'm not experiencing the same results. What should I do differently? I feel like I'm going insane :(