WHY AM I FAT AND MOODY????????????????????????????????
(Punta Gorda, Florida)
I'm so fat. SOOOOO FAT! I weight 260lbs and I'm a crazy psycho person 3 weeks of the month. I used to only be a crazy psycho person 1 week of the month. Yet I eat a healthy diet of dark green leafy vegetables, no sugar, no alcohol and very low carbs. No matter what diet I do or exercise I try I just cannot lose weight. I was never a thin child but never a fat one either but always looked like I could lose a few pounds because I am short. An even five foot. When I was about 11 I noticed that my thighs began at my knees and when I hit puberty the thighs just got bigger and bigger and bigger and then I developed the most shocking breast asymmetry. FOUR full cup sizes of a difference. It's still super embarrassing but not as bad as when I was a teen. I have MASSIVE blackheads and every time of the month look like Freddy Krueger because of all the zits I get. Three weeks before period I become psychotic and remain that way until bleeding ends. I literally have one month of peace when I am myself and then it starts all over again. I am not exaggerating when I say I am psychotic. I plot and scheme revenge on anyone who has wronged me, I cannot leave the house for fear of people looking at me. I could beat someone who looked at me the wrong way. I swear and curse and break things and wish most people I meet would drop dead and good riddance to them. I cry until my face feels paralyzed with self pity. Then....it passes I am an utterly ashamed and am my easy going self once more and dread the end of the week because then I will become crazy for 3 weeks. Does any of this sound like estrogen dominance? PLEASE HELP ME WRAY I AM SUICIDAL 3 WEEKS OF THE MONTH!