by Kelcy
(Bronxville, ny )


I don't really even know where to start with all of this but
I am so grateful I found this website.
I have been suffering (and I don't use this word lightly)
For 20 plus years with severe PMS which I have learned
Can also be called PMDD (as it is like PMS on steroids)
About two weeks out of every month for 20 plus
Years I feel like I am living in a torture chamber in my mind
And my body.
Once I get my period I feel mostly back to "normal"
But for two weeks commencing that I am a completely
Different person.
I also have some PTSD which adds to it all but I truly
Believe that a large majority of what I'm experiencing
Is hormonally linked.
I experience depression, I am way underweight,
Severe anxiety, anger out bursts, personality change,
Agoraphobia, I feel totally worthless, suicidal thoughts,
Self hatred, fear, obsessive compulsive thinking, very strong intense
Body odor (embarrassing!) alcoholism
(I've been sober about 4 years) self consciousness,
I can't hold down a job, I am not living!
I took the questionnaire and I scored about 59.
I need to have my hormone levels read as I never have.
It's like I'm just coming to see the light that this is not
Normal and I don't have to live like this anymore.
I have read that blood tests are not as accurate as
A saliva or urine test for this. Is this correct?
I have found a saliva test online to do at home
(DHEA, Progesterone, Estrogen, testosterone)
I do not have health insurance and cannot afford
To do a lot of tests.
I have been put on numerous anti-depressants and anti-anxiety
But none it works and makes me feel way worse.
I would really welcome your feedback and any advice you can
Offer me. I'm feeling totally alone in all of this and
Need some support.
Thank you!


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Sep 22, 2015
by: Rachel

Hi Kelcy. I am not in a position to advise you, because I am merely a hormonally-challenged woman, just like you. However, your post really struck me and I wanted to offer you some encouragement. I'm so sorry you've been suffering so badly and feeling alone. You're right, life shouldn't be so damn awful, and I wish you lots of success in your quest to heal. Wray will answer your question in time.
Lots of love to you.

Oct 05, 2015
by: Shalny

I felt so bad t read your post and I can relate to it in many ways. My pms was killing me too. If it wasn't the pain, it was the emotional roller coaster. I would vacillate between depression and rage. I was also obsessive. If something happened to upset me early in the day, I would obsess over it for days, replaying the incident over and over again in my head. I truly felt bi polar. From everything Ive read, I know that having optimal vit D levels and natural progesterone can make difference. I've been trying to find a balance with progesterone. I started taking it for my heavy, clotty bleeding every month. I started with 100 mg and kept upping it till I was taking around 300 everyday. Straight thru my cycle. The bleeding slowly got better but it's not optimal yet. But I must tell you that my pain and emotional pms has been reduced. It's not perfect but so much better and tolerable. I don't rage at my family as much as I used to. I'm taking less pain meds and I don't get as down on myself and weepy as I used too. I added taurine to my regimen and I think that may have made a difference too. Wray recommends it for bleeding but I think it helped with my emotions. Please search the archives. You'll find good info. Don't give up. Keep searching. I'm still a work in progress but I'm worth it and so are you! There is light at the end of the tunnel. Just be patient. Keep us posted on your progress and good luck!

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