No matter how many children you have, miscarriage still hurts!!!
by K. Baines
As of today,8-23-14,I am having a miscarriage right now. How sad. I gave birth to twin boys in 1999,son 2000, girl 2002,then a miscarriage in 03, I was devastated!!! My heart was broken. I thought it was my fault because I was not ready to be pregnant again because I had 4 small children, therefore, I was not thrilled about the idea of having another child at that time. as soon as I got used to the idea and my excitement grew. I lost my baby. I can't begin to explain my hurt. I took birth control even though I didn't really believe in it. I just could not go through that again. After 5 years I got rid of the birth control and immediately got pregnant. A healthy baby boy was born in 2009, 8 months later another miscarriage. This time it was worse because i just bled so heavily. It was horrible. i cried but i made it through with the help of the LORD and my hubby. gave birth to another son in 2012, and yet another baby.
I'm sad and heartbroken. I thank God for my beautiful healthy children 7 boys and 1 girl. I'm thankful for His many blessing. I just can't help but think were those babies I lost, were they my daughters that I have longed for? My first lost baby would be about 10 now, my second about 4, and i'm having one now that would be due around April 2014. I am sad but it feels good to express my feelings. I know that the Lord is able. Even now tears fill my eyes and run down my cheeks. I am comforted by God's grace and love. I hope that my story will encourage and help someone else. Thank you for letting me share.