My story from 2015 till now.............like to receive some advice
To tell a long story short: I am 56 years young (now feeling old) and have been in menopause for a number of years. In 2015 I started to get physical complaints: collitis, frozen schoulder, hearing loss, swelled mucus membranes in my uterus, I became nervous and could not sleep more than 4 hours a night.
At the end of December I received corticosteroids because of my intestines and that was the moment of my total break. My doctor thought of a panic attack and I got a huge dose oxazepam (benzo) to relax and ambien for sleep. My reaction to this was paradoxical. Whole days a high heartbeat, anxiety, insomnia (despite the ambien), strange feelings in my head, tinnitus, fear and a great feeling of discomfort. According to my doctor it was all in my head and I went in therapy.......without any improvement.
In the end i thought it was up to the medication so in September I almost stopped CT. Then the hell broke even more open. After 1 year of terrible withdrawal symptoms, I sometimes felt better for a few days, but in general my situation did not improve. Insomnia, fear, anxiety pumping heart, tinnitus, weakness, some depression.
I am a shadow compared to the active, sporty en enterprising woman that I once was. My social life seems to be over. To find an answer, I went to a natural doctor last month. He has done several tests including the salvia test. It turns out that I am very low in my cortisol. My estradiol was < 18.4 progesterone < 0.16 and testosterone 0.007.
For my low cortisol I received adrenal pills, magnesium, Vit C and B and Ashwagandha. I also received some diet instruction. For my hormones bio identical cream from which I take 1 pump E cream in the morning and 1 pump of P cream before sleeping (about 1 teaspoon).
The first few days I felt much more clear in my head and also a bit more relaxed and sleep was better. Only after the 4th day my heartbeat became extreme, I could hardly sleep and woke up more depressed (cry, cry,cry) and I experienced enormous tingling in my feet and legs. I Immediately stopped with the Ashwagandha and both creams. My heartbeat is now more quieter and the tingling is less.
Was it the cream or the Ashwagandha? Yet I must tackle my cortisol but with the constant fear in my body this is almost impossible. I am aware of the relation between cortisol and hormones but I just do not know what to do anymore. Did I start with too much cream, or should I have taken P cream alone?
My natural doctor says: stopping the cream. I live in The Netherlands and here bio identical hormones are not so popular and are prescribed mostly by natural doctors. I would like to receive any advice from you what I could do best in my situation. (I still believe that the cream is the answer) I would like to get my life back, even if only a little bit.
Thank you at least for reading my story. Just writing it down is already a bit of relief!!!
and......sorry for my English