My life has become hell
I'm a 42 year old mother of 5 never had any real illnesses other than a overactive thyroid which I had removed in 2000. Since then been on thyroxine without any further problems up until early last year when I started feeling really fatigued. I lost interest in everything, became withdrawn from everything, started getting dry stiff skin leftside of my face, felt like someone has slapped me hard and my cheek always gets caught in my teeth and losing my appetite. Just could not eat and even if I did manage to eat I'd be sick.
I lost 3 stone in two months then in May one day had my first panic attack, God I thought I was dying, just could not breath. My heart started racing like there was no tomorrow with a lot of pain in my chest. I got absolutely terrified. My son dialled 999 and I went to ER where they checked, xrayed and did heart scans then told me it was just acid problems and gave me painkillers and sent me home. The palpations continued and just would not go away. I went to a GP who did some blood tests and sent me home after telling me that I was suffering from anxiety and that I needed to look at my relationships and work out what was causing these feelings I was going through. I swear I felt like I was choking with the sensations I was feeling.
After this day I was always at the doctor's asking for answers which they couldn't give me. All bloods came back normal then after three months of suffering one lady doctor told me that we needed to look at my thyroid because I just could not find any peace. I was so restlees with irritability. My test came back that my thyroid (ten years after being stable) was too high and that my medications had to be stopped and I had to go to hospital for more heart scans which were normal for them but for me it was just a nightmare. My doc gave me beta blockers which calmed me a little but did not take my palpitations away. The next day I started getting pain in my caesarian. I went back to my doc who sent me for a scan. It turns out I have endometriosis which had to be removed by having another caesarian. I had more blood tests done. At this stage I was so down with everything that was happening with me I could not cook, sleep, look after my kids or my home. I was just like a zombie from taking antidepressants because the docs said I had depression. Turns out I had developed a hiatus hernia which started acid problems for which more medicines were prescribed.
I was so fed up at this stage no one had any answers for me. Then one day I got a call from the hospital and the nice doctor told me that my estrogen levels were low. I did not know what that meant so I told him to explain. He told me that I had gone into early menapause and had been for the last year and that explained everything. Everything fitted. He also told me that this was just the begining and I had years more of this condition to look forward to. I could not believe that my own practice missed this and let me suffer all this time thinking I was dying of somthing serious. I am still waiting for my GPs to start any treatment which they say will be after six months when they will do another test for themselves because the hormone levels are not bad at this stage. They gave me more antidepressants and anxiety and sleeping tablets which do not help in the long run. I'm just so fed up I do not know what to do. I've stopped all meds as they were doing more harm than good. Even now my period comes five days early every month and lasts for only a day and half. I got spots all over my body and keep trembling with day long palpitations and body vibrations and of course the smothered feeling and choking sensations. Can anyone please help? thankyou for taking the time out to read this.