I have lost so much of myself after breast cancer and postmenopause
I am now 64 and have struggled for the last 7 years to find a balance in my life after radiation for breast cancer and menopause. I have been so depressed that I have been on several antidepressants and have been ashamed of trying to self medicate with wine and Xanax also. The things I used to enjoy and have a passion for, like painting... I was an art major and art teacher, are gone. I don't have the energy or the desire to hardly do anything. I am drained all the time and suffer from terrible insomnia.
Because my cancer was estrogen positive, I was told to never take estrogen or bioidentical hormone replacement. Only recently I had a blood test that showed I was seriously low in estrogen and progesterone. It was actually at a chiropractors office. My Family Doctor had never tested this. I have been reading and researching since that test and have discovered that so many of my symptoms, the symptoms I thought were just post menopause and that I had to live like this the rest of my life, seem to actually be low progesterone. I have started aging very quickly and gaining weight, and don't have the desire or energy to take a walk. My skin is terribly dry, my heels cracked, my hair thinning.
I have always cared about my appearance and taken care of myself. Now I get up in the middle of the night from not sleeping and eat a half gallon of ice cream. My joints are degenerating and my teeth also. I have had to have 4 teeth removed and have implants in the last year alone.
I hope so much that I am able to use progesterone, even with the history of breast cancer. I would even risk it if it is not advised because I would rather live a full life than a life like the one I have been living for the last 7 years. I have a wonderful husband and 7 grandchildren that deserve a full of life, energetic wife, mother, and grandmother.