I feel like I'm going crazy... or everyone else thinks I am.
I am a 45 year old wife, mother of two teenage girls, part-time CPA. I have been a regular, consistent exerciser since I began running with my parents more than 30 years ago. However, at the age of 40 I was going through the stressful time of building a house, selling one and moving, as well as turning 40. I suddenly and inexplicably began putting on weight that I have been unable to shed no matter what I do. I have been to 7 different doctors looking for help and they all seem to either think I'm lying about my exercise and diet or say I'm over 40, so just I just have to live with it. I use a BodyMedia, food scale and calorie tracker religiously to track my calorie intake and burn, all to no avail. Spreadsheets detailing all of this information reveals absolutely no correlation between calorie intake, exercise and change in weight. This in itself has been EXTREMELY frustrating, but I also experience other symptoms: insomnia every single night for 5 years, zero libido, water retention, constipation, anxiety, depression, unexplained high cholesterol, fatigue, foggy thinking, occasional hot flashes and night sweats, low blood sugar, plantar fasciitis, and very light and short periods, to name the most problematic ones.
The 6th doctor (the one I still see) put me on a low dose of Armour Thyroid. I lost a few pounds but symptoms returned. She increased my dose to a full grain and I lost a couple more pounds, the constipation went away, anxiety improved, sleep got better (although I still wake up I could at least usually go back to sleep after starting Armour. Sadly, that is getting worse again.), headaches became much less frequent. She has been terrified to increase my dose because my TSH is low, even though FT3 and FT4 are still a little low and I have absolutely no symptoms of overmedication. The other symptoms I listed come and go, but unfortunately, the insomnia is worsening, I still can't lose a single pound and have started to gain again, and still no libido. I am utterly depressed by my appearance and my quality of life is suffering. I have no reason to be sad in my life and every reason to be grateful, but I feel like a suffocating cloud is over me that has stolen the joy and optimism I used to have. I am extremely frustrated and disgusted by the medical practice in general. Most recent doctor prescribed birth control pills (really?) and Ambien, which hasn't worked for me at all. My kids are getting older as are my parents and I feel like I'm just missing out on all this time. My long-suffering husband wants to help me but I'm sure he's getting tired of hearing about it and dealing with the crying. I am afraid to start the birth control pills for fear of what it might do to my already suffering system. I hope progesterone cream will be able to give me some help because I feel like everyone else thinks I'm crazy! Thanks for listening. No one can really understand unless they have experienced this personally!