hello, I need help. I will start with my past and what is going on now. 15 years ago I ended up hospitalized with postpartum depression. i have been on
an antidepressant since then. I have had problems with anxiety. Life is very hard. 3 years ago i had a miscarriage. then i became pregnant. someone suggested to me a doctor who is very friendly towards using progesterone, so i went hoping to prevent another miscarriage. well he said i was low and gave me a shot of progesterone and then he regularly took blood testsmto check my progesterone level. he kept me on progesterone suppositories for whole pregnancy. my baby was born 2 and a half years ago. i started to feel depressed again this past January so i went to the same doctor to have mt level checked again. it came back at.6. yes less than one. but he did not suggest progesterone this time. he just dealt with some of my other problems and did not mention the low prgesterone level. it surprised me because he is a doctor who prescribes the natural progesterone which you have to go to a special pharmacy to get. he also is a doctor who will prescribe it when other docors will not. anyway, in march was feeling so depression so ingot some of the left over suppositories out and started to smear them on myself. i felt so much better. but because the docor did not reccomend it i decided to skip using it for my april cycle. well now i am hopelessly depressed again. i have bad back problems and attributed the deperession to that. but i am thinking i need progesterone. i am so confused! i just want to feel better and be able to take care of my family. i dont know what to do. i am afraid of really goofing up my hormones as i do not know exactly how to take progersterone. i can hardly think anymore, i just need some help please.
any advice would be appreciated. thank you.
ps I am 43 if you need to know.