Returning Back to Myself
Thanks so much for this site. I have spent a lot of time on here in recent weeks :)
I have longstanding health issues - chronic fatigue syndrome for the last 15 years - and I have been slowly putting the jigsaw puzzle pieces together as to why. I have been perimenopausal for 10 years, since I was 34. As menopause comes closer, my CFS symptoms have worsened a lot. Added to the fatigue, the brainfog, the concentration issues, the inflammation issues, the myriad issues that go with CFS, I've also had a lovely little bout of feeling like I'm going a little nuts (you'll be unsurprised to know I also have/or have had high copper issues - I haven't had my levels tested so I'm not quite sure if those high levels have resolved yet. My regularly racing mind would say no, but our bodies are complex after all so who knows?)
Just before I started progresterone therapy I was having night sweats, the beginnings of hot flushes, anxiety attacks, and regularly feeling suicidal. I began taking it on 20 October, at a dose of 44 mg twice a day. Felt good for the first few days. Even from the first dose rubbed on my skin I knew I needed this. It was as though my body breathed a sigh of relief. And no wonder!
I soon began having estrogen dominance symptoms and so with a bit of trepidation started upping my dose. All those scare-stories about natural progesterone cream being unsafe to take in high doses I had to put to one side, because I would feel relief every time I upped my dose.
Over the space of several weeks I upped my dose until now I am taking 500mg a day in four divided doses and feeling MUCH more stable, although just the last couple of days I've been feeling more anxious again. I don't really want to go any higher than this; I have a feeling that this is the right dose for me ... but perhaps I do need to go even higher? I don't know, I'm a little confused. But I do think I am getting closer to having my period so perhaps that could explain the increased anxiety? I'm not sure.
My body feels like it's wanting to have a period. I can't remember if my period is late or if it's coming up soon. I've definitely been having those weighty heavy feelings that I tend to get before a period, and yet it hasn't happened. So maybe I am overdue, I'm not sure. But I've definitely decided to keep up with my dose right throughout this cycle.
Anyways, so apart from remaining anxiety, my depression levels have dropped a lot. I'm not feeling suicidal anymore. I'm not magically cured from CFS or anything but I am definitely feeling a little less fatigued. And I'm sure my adrenals are happy about progesterone taking a lot of the load off their overworking. My eyes have almost stopped their non-stop watering that's been going on for two weeks straight. Isn't it funny how you can have strong symptoms, like water retention, and not even really know you do until they get highlighted for you? I did not know until reading here that upper respiratory problems like sinus and rhinitis etc can be associated with estrogen dominance. My sinus issues have worsened over the past several years as well, so I look forward to their hopeful lessening.
Anyway, apologies for the long rambling :) I just wanted to leave my own story about the awesomeness of progesterone, and to get your thoughts on how long you think I should stay on this dose for before beginning to taper down?